Work has been slow all week and I wish we would just close! I need to go Christmas shopping but I don't know what I'm going to buy for everyone. I don't have enough money to buy anything extravagant. I have to go check my final grades which I know I did horribly. XP I just got back from watching Girl With Dragon Tattoo and it's quite an interesting movie. I'm thinking about going to read the book but we'll see if I have the time. I should be doing other things...haha. I'm glad she got her revenge against the sleazy social worker. All you dirty social workers out there, you've got it coming for you whether it's now or later! I wonder if they'll make a sequel...well, I'm tired. SoOo...see ya'll next time!

Randomly...I found myself wondering what was my worth in being here. I feel as if I'm just a waste of oxygen/space/flesh...whatever. To be truthfuly, I don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't want to do anything that I'm supposed to be doing. I especially don't want to go to school. Sometimes, I feel like I would rather work yet I get so tired of being at the restaurant too. I just feel as if my life is going nowhere. Maybe it's my own damn fault. I've dug too deep of a hole for myself and I can't get out of it anymore. I feel...like someone else could be doing something better if they had the chance to live out the rest of the years I have. Seriously...I feel like it would be better off if I just ceased to exist while someone...perhaps a terminally ill patient...will receive my remaining lifespan so they can have the chance to live out the life they want. That way...I'll feel like I was good for at least one thing.

Man...I hate feeling this way.